Today I drove up to our new town and met my parents at the Declan's for dinner. Kate had us choose Native American Medicine Cards. Mine was the spider. Apparently the alphabet was inspired by the spider web with its geometric shapes. No longer would children have to remember symbols they would now have a written language. Secondly, the web points in the four directions of the medicine wheel and determines the fate of others. Apparently, if the spider appears in my life it is a symbol to, "create, create, create!" It is also a warning that I may be getting too tangled in a situation. It is also to remind me to reflect on what I have woven and see the fruits of my labor instead of continuing to spin out a plan for life. "Congratulations," it exclaims, "for the spider has saved you from being blind to the possibilities you have createdalready." Or something like that. I am paraphrasing, as I cannot remember word for word what was written. It also mentioned that the spider helps people to look beyond the horizon of the physical world and that its web collects morning dew. It also reminds me that whatever the situation is I can make it good or bad. I have the ability to change the circumstances. It suggests that I keep a journal and note my creative progress.
Now how this spiritual reading hits home. The alphabet, right away reminded me of teaching and the fact that I am getting TEFL certified, the children need to know more. Secondly, the web points in all four directions of the medicine wheel, and I want to practice alternative medicine. The message of the spider is to create, and I have been itching to create: art, pottery, moccasins, a garden, a spiritual center. I need to figure out what situation I am getting too tangled up in, maybe that of wanting to find an apartment, or get a normal job, after all I am a nature freak and unconventional. My mentality has completely flip-flopped since I got off the trail. On the trail, barefoot and spirited, I had the idea that an opportunity would surface and give me direction in life. I had no direction planned, post-graduation, so I chose South on the AT. When I had to get off due to injury I was snapped back and almost overtaken by the conventional world. But I was/ still am fighting it. I dappled in spirituality and clearing out your chakras, alternative medicine and teaching. I was then fixated on this idea that I could find an apartment and a job in health care and be on my own. I don't know what I think now...which has been the case for the past 2 months.
The reading reminds me to stop spinning and look at what I have accomplished and use it. I need to figure out what that is. Let's look at my situation at this point: I am graduated magna cum laude with a bio degree, we are moving to NH, this prospect has been daunting but the ironic thing is, this place suits me perfectly, with its clean air, mountain views and back to basics mindset. My parents have offered me a place to live (free-of-charge), my dad also offered to buy me a car, and pay off my college debt. I have pushed all of this away with my stubbornness. Here is the perfect place to grow. I need to embrace it and put my weaving to rest for the moment.
Everything I want to accomplish, can be done here. The reading tells me that I change change the fate of any situation, and I need to see the move as good. This idea that I help people to see beyond the horizon of the physical world, relates to the fact that I have gained a new appreciation for spirituality. I love the morning and the web collects morning dew.
"The eight ball...isn't it lucky?" I saw a spider, the same spider yesterday and today, I rescued and released both of them. Could be coincidence...but I think not.
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